It just so happened that the passion of love I had for him came back into my life. For the previous 4 months I thought it was here to stay, and blossom into something beautiful. But it was swift, and our love turned into distant memories yet again. Then the pain and heartache took over my soul, body and mind. Now begins another journey for me, and this time I tend to leave all hope of our love renewal behind. It is time for me to start loving myself and find joys in life I never thought were possible. I need to seek refuge in friendships and family, not in someone that could care less if I were in their life. It is a new beginning, and I tend to take full advantage of it.